Something from Megan.
Hi everyone,
I just thought I would wright something since you haven't heard much of anything from me haha.
Ok, well, hello!
Where do I start, ok um the night of my dads attack freaked me out completely! I was so worried I couldn't breath I was to the point of almost hyperventilating, and I was also very very angry. I didn't even feel like praying. I was so angry with God. So many Qs going through my mind: why would God let this happen? Why me? Why my Family? Why my daddy? A man that loves God with all his heart, and all he wants to do is serve Him. All I wanted was to see those men pay for what they did to my dad.
God finally got hold of me one night while I was washing my hair. I broke down in tears. He told me that we can't hate the men that did such a horrible act on my dad. We have to pray for them that they will be saved. I began (instead of hating those men) to feel sorry for them. I want to see them in heaven some day. God told me that even though we may go through hell He will be there to bring us and good through it, and to protect us. It is sometimes very hard to trust God but we have to, with out Him we would be who knows where? So many great things of come out of this horrible nightmare! Friends and family of mine have come to Jesus and news reports want to know about this amazing God we are talking about and serve with our whole hearts.
God has changed my heart over all this. I am no longer angry at these men. He has such an amazing plan for my family and everyone that surrounds us. And for the little church on Baseline. I can not tell you how I truly feel it makes me cry thinking about my Jesus and everything He has done for me and everything He has brought me through. This is the first year that I have really attempted to read through the entire bible. Its amazing!! Right now I'm reading Luke. WOW. How cool is it to read this stuff that really happened!! Right!? I mean Jesus healing and blind and the crippled and even raising people from the dead! WOW! I have never been so excited to read my bible and to serve God. It makes my life whole when I'm sad or just sick of life or school I can just stop, put on a little Jeff Deyo worship and pray. O man it makes me feel so happy!! He takes away all my worries. Something God has really taught me is that no matter comes my way, I must endure it. God is with me 100% through it all! He is there to hold me and wipe the tears away.
Even though I have been through hell the past month He is bringing me through it.
I Encourage you whatever comes your way God is with you always! He will never EVER leave you nor forsake you!!! I am ashamed that I was angry with my heavenly father, but He has forgiven me of that and I tell you I am so happy He is a forgiving God!
Thank you for listening!
May GOD bless you SOOOO highly that you overspill :)
Love you all and thank you so much for everything you have done!!!
LOVE Megan
Love you Megan!! And miss you! Have fun at Co-Op today!
ReplyDeleteMegan we love you so much and I'm glad that you are in God's arms...always!! I'm so glad that your dad is getting better everyday. I can't wait to come and see you and just sit in your living room with everyone there and feel whole again. Hugs, Jill
ReplyDeleteMegan, I'm a stranger to you, but a sister in Christ. I rejoice in what God is doing in your heart and in awe, as always, of His ability to take something so tragic and work it for good. It's in those times that He touches our lives individually and powerfully that we become bonded to Him so securely that we just want to hang with Him for life and never stray far from that very special place. "For the Lord you God has arrived to live among you. He is a mighty savior. He will rejoice over you with great gladness. With His love, He will calm all your fears. He will exult over you by singing a happy song." Zeph. 3:17
ReplyDeleteMegan. You may not believe it, but I too have been mad at God. When Kim had her miscarriage, I became very angry with God. I could not understand why this would happen to someone who wanted a child so badly. After about two months, I was praying and God told me, "We'll talk about this in heaven!" I accepted that and went on with my life. We don't always know why things happen, but God has everything under his control. Someday, who will know WHY.
ReplyDeleteThank you sweetheart for sharing your heart with us. It means alot to me and touches my heart too. Thank you. ~hugs~,Trish
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